numero nueve .

Where you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I’ll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say

How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how i
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart

I’ll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive

Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say

How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel



maroon 5- sweetest goodbye.


my gosh. save me, please.

numero ocho . MY S0NG .

o, yo, check it
It's important, we communicate
and tune the fate of this union, to the right pitch
I never call you my bitch or even my boo
There's so much in a name and so much more in you
Few understand the union of woman and man
And sex and a tingle is where they assume that it land
But that's fly by night for you and the sky I write
For in these cold Chi night's moon, you my light
If heaven had a height, you would be that tall
Ghetto to coffee shop, through you I see that all
Let's stick to understandin and we won't fall
For better or worse times, I hope to me you call
So I pray everyday more than anything
friends will stay as we begin to lay
this foundation for a family - love ain't simple
Why can't it be anything worth having you work at annually
Granted we known each other for some time
It don't take a whole day to recognize sunshine

There are times.. when you'll need someone..
I will be by your side, oh darling
There is a light, that shines,
special for you, and me..

numero siete .

Girl turn me up and let me come through your speakers
Blow the sound out of your tweeters
Cause babygirl this is the music for love
Shawty don't be scared, just let the bass line hit you
Boom boom, all up in your system
Cause babygirl, this is the music for love
Girl, let my frequency just flow through your body
Get this party started, cause baby, babygirl
This is the music for love
Put me on repeat girl, let's go again and again
No matter AM or FM
Cause babygirl, this is the music for love"

numero seis .

Donora - Shh .

I like I like when we whisper soft to each other

I like I like when we're quiet with one another

I like I like when we're n-nice nice to each other

I like I like when we surely like one another

I like I like when we whisper soft to each other

I like I like when we're quiet with one another

I like I like when we're n-nice nice to each other

I like I like when we surely like one another

numero cinco .

he can only hold her [amy winehouse ]
He can only hold her for so long
The lights are on but noone's home
She's so vacant Her soul is taken
He is what she's running from
How can he have her heart
When it got stole
Though he tries to pacify her
Whats inside her never dies
Even if she's content in his warmth
She gets pained with urgency
Urgent kisses
The miss misses
The man that he longs to be
Now how can he have her heart
When it got stole
So he tries to pass it by
Cause what's inside'll never die
As he tries to pacify her
Cause whats inside her never dies



someone help me stop. i started again. i'm sorry. SOS.

numero quatro .

my gosh.

i feel like i lost a piece of me- or like all of me last night . & all i pray is that you are okay and that i get through this & hopefully one day definitely, maybe.


62605- 21108. [ray j - one wish, ronan keating - when you say nothing at all, aslyn- be the girl ]


i will always love you .


Lord, i really need you right now . take away this emptiness please. & please let me pass my exam

numero tres .

so i figured that i attempt this one more time because my heart is aching for someone else to see this for someone else to listen, for someone else to believe in me.

relationships are weird - rough around the edges and as you go deeper into it, it begins to soften and starts to fit every curvature of your soul as you fall deeper and deeper. But i feel like i've fallen so deep that its practically engulf every part of my being . Woah, sounds way to dramatic.

"how about forever?"

i never have thought that through my years of dating i'd endure so much where i feel my luster has been dulled down to the point where its nothing but metal. I mean, i'm okay with going through every step and every problem- but there's not solution, there hasn't been a solution since it all started falling apart.

Ignoring problems, yelling, low blows and such are just one of the many reasons i'm just torn and tattered.

I feel like i've changed so much of myself that i don't even know what i'm doing anymore or who i am anymore .

I've been in this for so long, and i never thought that i'd lost every part of me- the things i liked changed, the way i dressed changed and even the way i spoke and handled things. I've come to notice that although i did gain new experiences and opportunities, i feel like i lost so much also . I was always there, every step in every way to be that leaning shoulder, to be that person, to be THAT girl. I wanted to be that girl.

Maybe sometimes, i don't want to be that girl anymore. I just want me- i want me back, and i want someone to adore me and love me as much as their hearts can handle. I dont want to change myself anymore and be someone like i'm not, especially like buy a 350z and then fuck it up- good job, idiot.

but i want happiness- life is too short to have nothing but happiness. Through this, i pray and hope that i find myself & find someone that truly does fit me. God, fill this void and make me whole.


last night was the first night i felt safe. thanks for being "next" to me .


infinite Xs and 0Hs,
abril .

numero dos

Hey, i'm april. i'm short & have a big heart.i love to cut my hair and i'm scared to trust people now.

thaaanks ;)