eugene.

Dear Eugene,

Its kind of awkward writing to you especially when i know you can't read this. Or maybe? [ i hope you can]
I may get in trouble for writing this letter to you, but i don't care. Its been about a year a few months since your death & i can honestly say that i think about you from time to time. Think about you and glenn visiting me and rescuing me from that wreched time during my sophomore year.
I want to tell you im sorry for not giving you the chance you truly did deserve. I guess i was in too deep for someone to notice that someone saw me for me and didn't care about the brands and what i looked like, but cared for what i already was. You were smart and funny and you rescued me. You drove up with glenn 6 hours up and 6 hours down just to stop my tears- just to stop the hurting, stop them- stop time--- just for me.
I tell your story to the people that i'm close with and the people i meet. I tell them about your story with me- our short but savouring story of puppy love & simplistic values. I remember the gentleman that helped me cross the streets in canada & the gerberas at my first academic/engineering ball. I remember our conversations at my cafeteria and the constantly mocking of me watching ugly betty and greys. I remember the drive down- and the words, " i may not be the best looking guy in the world but if i can have the chance to be there for her- i will"
I wanted to give you your chance that night. I want you to know that. I want you to know that I called at midnight- right when you told me that you would call after your shift. I called Eugene. I really did. I wanted to hang out with you and get to know my best friend's best friend. I'm sorry i never made it to your funeral or wake. Im sorry i havent visited your grave- but know that i did call. I did make that phone call and i left messages on your voicemail. I did, i wanted to know you. I still want to know you.
Thank you for being my hero.


So i ask [please take care of me and glenn] help us to just get over ourselves and tell him to forigve me please. Lord, help me.


Forever&always,
april.dawn.