twilight*

so its been a while since ive written here. Summer days have gone. My internship is over! So i have a few weeks left to enjoy my summer. Have i lost weight? Probably not. Have i studied? yea right.

For the last day the 8th floor threw me and Diana a party to congratulate us for finishing the program. We got a few gifts like a lay, bath and body works stuff and and a giftcard. My preceptor also got me a giftcard which i used already. Ithink im gonna miss her the most. She was awesome. She is such an amazing nurse and she is hilarious. I can't wait to be just like her when i graduate.

This is my final year. SHEEEESSSH. im excited. Scared, but excited. I hope that i do become like her, or maybe even better. Stop letting the shitty shit get to me and breathe, stretch, shake and let it go. I think thats what summer has taught me the most. Hello, senior year- my name is april dawn and im here to show you that im so badass that i can kick my own ass.

I didnt go to the beach alot. And i spent most of my time wiping asses and changing beds more than anything. I think that i fell in love with life, and with what it offers me all over again too. I mean, all the things that i went through this summer has just given me a stepping stone to me being something greater. I know i am worth much more than the life im leading.

Im also more thankful for my mother and father even though they drive me nuts sometimes. Its crazy to think that i let other people sway my thoughts of what my family has made me. Maybe i am easily swayed, but im glad i have my parents, especially my mom, to help me be happy with what i have and what im working my ass towards. I may not be able to afford alot of stuff, but im glad that i can rock the shit that i already do have [ ha, im a jackass]

on another note, david has wrote me another again. I miss that guy. I pray that he gets through his training and achieve what his heart truly desires. We started writing eachother about a month ago- and so far the communication has been going well. He'll be back soon so, I hope i can see him soon.
I feel like i've lost myself so much that i don't know who i am anymore. I try and try to search, but i think that the answers will come eventually and that maybe its just time to breathe. Don't worry- they can take the broken dreams, the broken promises, they can take tomorrow and the plans we've made, they can take future that we'll never know- they can take it away, but they'll never have yesterday. Im okay though. I really am. Even if i don't know, just guide me because you know.

For the next few weeks- i just want my memories. Pictures, collages, sunshowers, kisses, love love and more love. I want something sentimental like a ring or a freestyle. I want my last 2 1/2 weeks to be the most amazing part of my summer, even though i think my whole summer was the best part of summer.


sorry for the A.D.D. rantings.

infinite EXs & OHs,
april dawn.

ps. " don't be afraid, we belong together" i murmured

pps. His arms wrapped around me, holding me against him. It felt like every nerve ending in my body was a live wire. "forever," he agreed

ppps. twilight saga.


pppps. happy birthday gangstar. hope you like the crave case lovin.