mushaboom.

me.
ohh stupid me.
no, i am not here to play the victim although i know ive mastered that role.
but on a serious note.
me
ive officially graduated. UB alum. Graduate RN Nurse. I am now an adult. with adult duties
i miss knowing that in 3 months i have to head back to buffalo but now im dealing with my boyfriend going back to school.
i miss my boyfriends and my friends and honestly, my freedom.
the freedom to renew, relax, rejuvenate and to replenish.

you know, for a while now ive always been complaining about how steven acts way to much like a kid, when little does he know it, im more jealous than anything. yes, sometimes i wish he'd be a bit more mature but i wish i can say that i lived my childhood life as good as he does. i remember when i was 8 and my dad was sick and then 10 when he had a triple by pass. i remember by 12 he couldnt work. and by 17 i started dating someone who sent me on a rollercoaster of death, cutting and hitting. i wish i can act the way he does but i cant. and the worst part is that its hard for me to even see eye to eye. i hope he understands that its hard to right now, but hopefully we'll get through it.


maybe im just a woman of faith. or maybe im just insane. but in the end, i just hope to be happy.