triple...wwwwhhhhaaattt ? !

Lately, summer days have been a bit slower, a bit quieter and a bit more peaceful. Ive stayed home everyday this past week only going out to study for the NCLEX. Ive been studying for the past four days for the test. I would rather enjoy my last week prior to my review class basking under the sun, but mother nature has plans otherwise.

I had finally confirmed when I am taking the exam. Once I got the "Confirmation Appointment", i literally started hyperventilating and freaking out. THAT DAY. My judgment day. I only told one person because I tell them everything but i'll be keeping it a secret from the rest of the world. I really hope I do pass. The pressure that my family is putting on me, and the pressure i'm putting myself is making me want to strive and work harder to pass this 2 hundred something or hundred something or seventy something question exam the first time. After that, job hunting here I come!

Really, NYC- the legit place for "opportunity" has put the biggest BLOCK on job opportunities for us 2009 graduate nurses. Many of the kids in my class either are going back to Buffalo or just patiently waiting. Im searching all over and I do have a few places, but nothing is determined until I pass my NCLEX. I remember I went to the M15 Floor party at 92nd and 1st ave rooftop and it was alot of fun however, one of the nurses (which I never worked with) along with a couple of the PCAs were talking and I told them about the nursing hiring freeze and she replied, " wow, i guess we're lucky. That must really suck for you. See- i worked on the floor and i stayed on the floor- im so lucky" no shit, you stupid bitch. FML...but breathe april, you'll get a job and then "eat your heart out you middle- aged woman, you !"... JK, but seriously- i'm hopeful.

Another positive that comes out after I take the exam is that i'll be going to San Diego, CA. sweettt! Its a gift from my cousin, Rowie. We havent' seen eachother since I was in highschool. So it'll be really nice to relax since I havent had a vacation since Tampa. Ive been craving to go away with boyfriend, but boyfriend and I are B R O K E. So when I or he start working, hopefully we'll go somewhere nice. But when I go to San Diego i'll be dancing in dance classes. beaching. touristing. whichever amusement park-ing, dancing, dancing, dancing, shopping, dancing, dancing, dancing, shopping, getting brown and dancing. He's a big dancer and iLOVE to dance- so lets get down.

" but i feel the boring parts are the most memorable parts "Up 2009. Steven and I watched Up prior to him leaving for Florida and let me tell you- it was soooo good- like cake batter good. I cried in the beginning. It wasn't even like a simple tear cry, I was pretty much " streaming tears, baby hold me, silence though" cry. It was sad in a particular part. Disney still has its ways to touch people's hearts- young and old. No matter what, everyone should just watch it cos its good.

Ive been kinda lacking something inside. Sounds so emo however, I have. I don't know if i need validation or acceptance or some holiness but i'm lacking something. Last night, i couldnt sleep one bit. I wrote in my journal (hence the negligence of the blogspot) and I tossed and turned all night. Maybe it was the white chocolate mocha I had that might of caused it, which would suck cos im having another one right now and that is equivalent to another sleepless night but maybe i'm just thinking too much. But i feel like a lackee.

So today I went to a bra store to buy new bras and i got measured to make sure my bajungas didnt get bigger. See i can write about it here cos only like 2 people read this, so i'm okay. When the lady was measuring me for my club size she states " hmmm, i can't tell if you're a double D or a TRIPLE D " ...HOLY CRAP?! are you serious?! my boobs are like weapons now -_-. I am not stating if I did fit or did not fit the triple D bra but im telling you now- i'm getting a boob augmentation and i'm gonna be a size A. TRIPLE D ?! are you serious? i'm so glad i havent knocked anyone unconscious...yet.


april D D D awn