whats your definition?

Love is you+// Chrisette Michele

I should be reading. I should be doing questions because my exam is close but i wanted to write this prior to my studying. Its time to reflect the fourth of 2009.

Thanks to Evelyn and for her covering for me, I was able to spend the weekend with Steven. I was able to meet a few of his paddling friends with their bbq and then spent the next day, which was our anniversary, watching a movie and going to a park and then going to this really pretty site where we got to see the bridge there in queens.

It was a beautiful weekend minus him pissing me off in front of his family and me imploding in his room to cool down. Common steven, a french fry? Despite it though, being with him makes me feel good. really good.

I remember when we were watching the fireworks on the rocks and holding him really tight. I made my decision, i guess, or did He? He's progressing and I really hope he thinks of me as worth it.

The days are starting to speed up and soon he'll be leaving back to Buffalo. Tears are already running down my face with the mere thought that he'll be gone. But he's always saying that its just me and only me and that he wont forget us. Im holding onto that. Im hoping that he wont let us fade.

Public Enemies was a swanky film- not the best with cinemotography however, the story line did follow and i did sincerely like it. a bit too long though. We watched that together. I like howq he kisses my head in the theatre- approximately a bajillion times. But the kisses felt sweet.

"what did i tell you?"
" dont come back for me, you'll get killed"
" what did i tell you"
" that you'll take care of me"
" then thats all you have to know"


happy fourth.


so now its time to buckle down, time to be on the grind. Pray that I take this challenge on with confidence and that i pass my exam. God- thank you for everything, for being my everything.


with love,
aprildawn.